Relationship

Everytime I feel moody/emo, and I know my words will not make you feel good....but if you care, you will find out what happened first before showing me all your emotions. It's really hard if we were to feel so negative everytime this kinda thing happens. Last time, you were like that, you will always asked me what happened or what's the problem first.
Now you always do things to drive me mad...and ytd I nearly went crazy....I cried so hard and that was the 3rd time I cried before you start to console me. I mean....you really wanna make me mad??
I s this what you meant you already gave me all your love and put in all your best??
Ytd when you hugged me when I was crying like a mad person, soon to enter into an undesirable state of insanity, I felt that all my love for you was gone. Cause Everytime we quarreled, I would always be the loser, the one who ended up crying and saying sorry. Don't I have the right to feel sad or emo when something happened to me?? I know it's my fault....BUT YOU ARE MY BOYFRIEND!! instead of making things better for me, you ALWAYS drive me mad by doing all your stupid things.
Maybe I am the one who drive you crazy....

Hi peeps!

I'm back for more updates!

But before that, I want to say something...Actually few times during work, I was thinking whether to call up my bff Shun Hiang to ask if she's coming to my 21st birthday party or not only that....I wanna asked how is she doing right now...I missed her so much >< but glad that I finally took up the initiative to call her up tonight! haha btw, we've never talked and meet for 4 months alr??! and  I also got to know that her graduation day (NP) is this COMING THURSDAY! hais...she thought I was schooling and therefore she didnt tell me coz she thought I could just pop by her sch( my sch SIM is just next to hers).

the bad news is...I GOT WORK THAT DAY:( but i'll try to ask leave from my boss(I just told my boss i'm quiting in a few days time). so try to understand my situation yea?

Next is....regarding my work...I am gonna look for new jobs tmr! Tmr is my off day!! :) weets~! I'm not gonna mentioned anything about my current job coz of confidential issues. Anyway, I'll be looking for retail shops like UniQlo :) since it's GSS period :D

Lastly, it's about my school :( this is the most problematic one...I am thinking whether to quit school now and continue one year later or change my course to part-time instead of full time....coz I realised full time doesnt make much difference as part time. Another reason is...I wanna work and earn as much money when I'm still young...don't wanna start when I'm older...but the actual reason is...I don't wanna see those BITCHES. I treat them nicely but they treat me like some stranger. hope God will enlighten me coz there are so many things on my mind now....

Those who treat me badly now will get their deserved retribution in time even if it takes decade.(take Japan for example)

I will update my photos tmr during my off day! See ya readers! Have a good night ahead! :)

Love,

xoxo

Lost :(

I just need a space to rant over here...

Few days ago, on Wednesday I quarrelled with my new colleage Marie aka Apple after work, and then we went to club Arena for Ladies Night just half an hour after we resolved the problem. I had so much fun dancing with her, and sitting at the VIP table with 3 tai tai who opened few bottles cost $300-$400 :) so shiok!

From then on, we became really good friends....then on Saturday, we went out after work again to her friend's birthday party. We drink again but not drunk...at this moment, something happened...a fight broke out between 2 women fighting for a man...Hais...

Cheating happens when a woman entrusted all her faith into the man she loves and the guy make use of the liberty of trust....seriously JERKS!

And then today when I came to the shop, the shop was not opened yet (coz normally she will come early). Then I saw her sms to me saying " M not going to work. will be going back to phil..."

My heart really sank when I saw that message...I feel lost and  gone

That day, Baby is suppose to celebrate his friend's 18th birthday but missed it coz of me :( I really dont want things to turn out this way but I really need someone to lean on now....am glad I've got Baby :( in addition, someone I dislike went for the party as well...so more reasons for me not to allow my dear to be there

The reason why I was so heartbroken when I learnt that Apple is leaving....is because she is the one who made me have the courage to do the things that I've never done before...e.g clubbing, drinking, modelling(soon) and maybe smoking ? but I dont think I'll turned to be a bad girl coz that's not what I want to be. It's kinda sad for me because I only get to do all these after I'm gonna turn 21??

I tell myself....I don't wanna camp in front of my com envying models and people who have such a lively & enjoyable life anymore...I WANT TO BE ENVIED INSTEAD

So you guys better don't camp in front of your com now and waste your life away while you can actually find ways to realise your dreams when it's not too late!

GOOD LUCK READERS!

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